miuuuuu

“All That I’ve Got” by Used

So deep that i didn’t even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I’m far from lonely
asleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that i didn’t even bleed and catch me I…

I need something eles would
someone please just give me
Hit me knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
all I want inside and still i am empty
So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me I…

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
and it’s all that I’ve got

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
and it’s all that I’ve got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, im losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn’t even scream fuck me, I….

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
and it’s all that I’ve got

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
and it’s all that I’ve got

And it’s all that I’ve got
Yea it’s all that I’ve got…
It’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got!

So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn’t even scream fuck me

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
and it’s all that I’ve got

I’ll be just fine
Pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
and it’s all that I’ve got

And it’s all that I’ve got
Yea it’s all that I’ve got

Saliva - Rest

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again,
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did,
It has not healed with time…
It just shot down my spine.
You look so beautiful tonight,
Remind me how you laid us down,
And gently smiled,
Before you destroyed my life…

Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again,
You got much closer than I thought you did,
I’m in your reach,
You held me in your hands…

But could you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart,
To make this go away,
And let me rest in pieces?
(Let me rest in pieces)

Could you find, could you find in your heart?
(Could you find, could you let me rest in pieces)
Could you find, could you find in your heart?
(Could you find, could you let me rest in pieces)

Someday We’ll Know Lyrics

Ninety Miles outside Chicago
Can’t stop driving
I don’t know why
So many questions
Need an answer
Two years later
You’re still on my mind

Whatever happen to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

(Chorus)
Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain…
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue…
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you…

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I’m speeding by the place that I met you
For the 97th time…tonight

(Chorus)
Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain…
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue…
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you…
(yeah yeah yeah yeah)

Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah…
One day I’ll go
Dancing on the moon…
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you…

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow,
And watched the stars crash in the sea,
If I could ask God just one question…
Why aren’t you here with me?…tonight

(Chorus)
Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain…
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue…
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you…
(yeah yeah yeah yeah)

Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Delilah…
One day I’ll go
Dancing on the moon…
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you…

A Broken wing by Martina Mcbride

She loved him like he was
The last man on Earth
Gave him everything she ever had
He’d break her spirit down, then come lovin’ up on her
Give a little, then take it back
She’d tell him ’bout her dreams
He’d just shoot ‘em down
Lord he loved to make her cry
“You’re crazy for believin’ you’ll ever leave the ground, he
said only angels know how to fly”

CHORUS:
And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye on the sky
With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man, you outta see her fly!!!!!

One Sunday morning
she didn’t go to church
He wondered why she didn’t leave
He went up to the bedroom
Found a note by the window
With the curtains blowing, in the breeze

CHORUS:
And with a broken wing
she still sings
she keeps her eye on the sky
with a broken wing she carries her dreams
man, you outta see her fly!!!!!

With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you outta see her Fly!!!!!

he First Cut is the Deepest Lyrics

I would have given you all of my heart
but there’s someone who’s torn it apart
and she’s “taken” almost all that I’ve got
but if you want, I’ll try to love again
baby I’ll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
‘cause when it comes to being lucky she’s cursed
when it comes to lovin’ me she’s worst
but when it comes to being loved she’s first
that’s how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I’ve cried
cause I’m sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I’ll try to love again
but baby, I’ll try to love again, but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

‘Cause when it comes to being lucky she’s cursed
when it comes to lovin’ me she’s worst
but when it comes to being loved she’s first
that’s how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest

My Immortal

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I’m bound by the life you’ve left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

The Scientist by Coldplay

Come up to meet ya, tell you I’m sorry
You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions
Oh let’s go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Don’t speak as loud as my heart.
Tell me you love me, and come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
coming back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m going back to the start.

Damn!
Hari-hari yang penuh dengan nuansa kesedihan sedang berlangsung. Bermula dari seseorang yang has told me a bad news, hiks. Pokoknya minggu ini aku jadi obyek yang paling dikasihani di my boarding house. Dan soundtrack kos minggu ini adalah Hapus Aku dari nidji. Sialan!!!
Banyak yang ngasih aku nasehat, tapi yang paling dahsyat mungkin adalah petuah dari makhluk aneh berinisial D yang dengan suksesnya membuatku down. Memang logis sih apa yang dikatakannya. Akhirnya aku pun memutuskan sebuah langkah kekalahan yang gak aku banget. Sempat terpikir nasihat MT;O yang berkata” keputusan untuk mundur memang menyakitkan”. Dan setelah kupikir-pikir “ Hey, may be the truth isn’t like what you’ve been thinking”. Tada….man, that’s an answer that I really need! Mungkin dia memang berkata begitu, tapi hati orang kan gak ada yang tahu , he he he.
Tambah semangat ketika seseorang has sent me sms from Bandung, yang semula kukira dia telah ignore me. That sms makes me feel “ I’m not bad at all !!!” dasar narsis! Apapun yang dikatakan D, aku bakal carry on this. Tapi aku gak bakal bilang sama D biar gak jadi bahan tertawaan seumur hidup.
BTW, ada kejadian lucu! Banyak orang yang ngira aku punya ….sama D. OMG, jika aku sampai jadian sama D mau jadi apa dunia ini. Kita kan saudara kembar yang beda ibu beda bapak. Gak sehat kalo jatuh cinta!!!

hari-hari yang penuh dengan tanda tanya”??????????”
Sampai khirnya aku pulng ke rumah orang tuaku dan bertemu dengan makhluk hitam berbulu yang paling lucu bernama @ViCKY@. Ketika aku baru datang dia langsung cengar cengir dan bertanya tentang kejadian yang menimpaku selama 2 minggu itu. Aku pun dengan suksesnya membuat dia tertawa, menertawakan kekonyolanku.
” Well, sist!!! Welcome to my life” the jomblo society”. BTW, kamu pasti merasa…., ya kan ????”
” Sok tau!!! You know Vic, aku merasa terbebas dari ribuan kubik lumpur panas”
“Halah, boong!!”
” Cause, I’ve found somebody new”
“Wesss, semelekete!!! Mo nyaingin si playboy ganteng ini nih critanya…???”
“Sembarangan!!!”
” Sadar,mbakkk. Menurut lagu terbaru Panic!at The Disco @You have writen sin@”
“Menurut moyangnya panic! at the disco @ I have writen tragedy not sin @. Kalo dosa ntar aku masuk neraka duoooonk!!!
“Whatever lah!!! Terus, siapa somebody new-mu???”
” La la la la la la”
” Akhirnya….nyantol ke itu juga, itu mah setipe ma aku !!!@
“Tipe 21 ???”
“Katanya mau yang lebih ….dikit???”
“Gak penting, yang penting yang ada di hati”
” Ya Allah gusti…bar iki aku duwe ponakan anyar”
“Tapi….banyak rintangan menghadang. Jadi kupasrahkan saja semua pada yang di atas”
“Baguslah, kalo nyadar!!!”
Percakapan aneh sore itu akhirnya ditutup dengan alunan sondtrack hidup si Vicky dan kakaknya which are rapuhnya DEWA & TERE yang pencuri hati. habis itu kita berdua pada berteriak…..”Norak banget sih kitaaaaaaa!!!!!”

28.06.2006
05:48

Bgn…Bgn…Uda salat sbh blm??? DN baru bangun neeh. Males bgt yah…Bsk ujian yah! Jgn lupa blajar…Kan biar cumlaude. Amin

27.06.2006
19:00

Ye, katanya berakhlak terpuji. Tp kok boong ma mbak kos. He he he
Yauda, liat bsk yah. DN sih nganggur, gada kerjaan ampe tgl 11. antivirus jg ada , jadi tinggal nganter aja.

27.06.2006
18:41

Yee,Cita-citanya Bikin UKM, kali….He he he…Duh gmn tah?? Mau DN kasih antivir aja , masa ke kos D lagi. G papa gitu ???Cm kasih antivir aja mah, g sebanding sm jauhnya. He he

27.06.2006
18:20

D, komputermu ada antivirus gak? Ternyata di flashku ada virusnya. Ntar dicsan dulu yahfilenya. DN baru ngescan skrg. ngomong-ngomong CBU kepanjangan dari apa ??? He he he

Honestly, He’s the first boy who is really click with me from the first time we met. Gimana yah….Kayaknya aku bakalan dapat pengalaman baru lagi. Tuhan Mahatahu…saat kamu merasa sedih karena melepaskan seseorang atau kehilangan seseorang, Tuhan akan memberimu ganti yang lebih baik lagi. Oh….so sweet….Chayo!!!

28.06.2006
05:48

Bgn…Bgn…Uda salat sbh blm??? DN baru bangun neeh. Males bgt yah…Bsk ujian yah! Jgn lupa blajar…Kan biar cumlaude. Amin

27.06.2006
19:00

Ye, katanya berakhlak terpuji. Tp kok boong ma mbak kos. He he he
Yauda, liat bsk yah. DN sih nganggur, gada kerjaan ampe tgl 11. antivirus jg ada , jadi tinggal nganter aja.

27.06.2006
18:41

Yee,Cita-citanya Bikin UKM, kali….He he he…Duh gmn tah?? Mau DN kasih antivir aja , masa ke kos D lagi. G papa gitu ???Cm kasih antivir aja mah, g sebanding sm jauhnya. He he

27.06.2006
18:20

D, komputermu ada antivirus gak? Ternyata di flashku ada virusnya. Ntar dicsan dulu yahfilenya. DN baru ngescan skrg. ngomong-ngomong CBU kepanjangan dari apa ??? He he he

Honestly, He’s the first boy who is really click with me from the first time we met. Gimana yah….Kayaknya aku bakalan dapat pengalaman baru lagi. Tuhan Mahatahu…saat kamu merasa sedih karena melepaskan seseorang atau kehilangan seseorang, Tuhan akan memberimu ganti yang lebih baik lagi. Oh….so sweet….Chayo!!!

Aku tahu perasaanmu
Mungkin suatu saat aku juga akan mengambil langkah yang sama
Tapi N….
Aku saat ini benar-benar merasakan hal yang sangat berbeda
Berbeda dari yang sebelum-sebelumnya
Mungkinkah ini yang namanya cinta sejati???

M : “Bagaimana kalo aku ganti penampilan?”
F : ” Maksudnya??”
M : ” Jadi kayak si….”
F : ” Jangan, jangan!! Nanti aku jadi nggak kenal kamu. Aku suka kamu yang sekarang. Aku suka kamu yang seperti in, Sumpah !!! Jangan yah…yah… please….
M : “Hiks hiks …, kau membuatmu terharu….”
F : ” Sudahlah, jalani saja hidup ini dengan apa adanya. Toh,kalo jodoh gak bakalan lari kemana”
M : “Gitu ya???”
F : ” Ya kata orang sih begitu
M : ” Yah…sudahlah….”

Entah kenapa ya, beberapa saat yang lalu aku merasa diriku tlah tersesat. Di saat begitu banyak peta yang tersedia, banyak kerumunan orang untuk bertanya, tapi aku masih saja menjadi orang asing. Sampai pada puncaknya hari Kamis minggu lalu. Bendunganku tlah pecah, hati nuraniku menjerit. Aku sadar bukan semua itu yang kuinginkan. Aku tlah berdosa pada diriku, aku sudah mengorbankan orang lain untuk kesenangan sesaatku.
Aku pun akhirnya membulatkan tekadku tuk menghentikan semua ini. Lalu semuanya pun berakhir…dengan tumpahan air mata, dengan kemuraman dirinya. Kini aku bebas, bisa tersenyum walau mungkin tak selega dulu.
Untuk seseorang yang tlah banyak meluangkan waktunya untukku ” maafkan aku, aku tak bisa”
Untuk seseoprang yang tlah mendengarkan curhatanku, tngisanku malam itu ” trimakasih, kamu memang sahabat terbaikku. meski kita berbeda jenis, tapi kurasa curhat denganmu seperti curhat dengan saudara perempuan, he he he…”

Kusadar ternyata aku tlah mencintai seseorang. Seseorang yang selama tak terpikirkan akan kucintai. Seseorang yang selama ini selalu tersenyum kepadaku, seseorang yang selalu ada bila ku ada, seseorang yang ….
Ah, entahlah !!! Ini mungkin hanya emosi sesaat, tapi…
Mungkin aku harus menunggunya, mungkin aku harus menjadi bukan diriku, mungkin aku harus ikut kursus….tapi kurasa aku tak peduli
Aku bisa menjadi seseorang yang luar biasa, jika itu yang ia mau
Mungkin aku munafik, tapi aku bahagia
Mungkin aku akan terluka jika suatu saat nanti aku tak bisa bersamanya, tapi aku bahagia
Lebih baik mencintai seseorang daripada dicintai oleh orang yang tidak kita cintai
Aku yakin itu
Akan kutepati

Haloooooo